Dear Lord
I need to state this clearly. I need everyone to see it. I love you Lord, with all my heart and all my soul. There is no doubts in my relationship with You. You are my commander and I am your soldier.

Thousands of years ago you chose me. I can’t figure out for the life of me why you chose me. What good am I to you. I don’t understand. I am broken and weak. How do I serve you when I can’t take care of myself

I live in the world most of the time. I am trying to change. I am fighting against what sin does to me. I HATE the sin in me. I hate who I am. I hate what I do. I hate my rebellion against you. I hate the open defiance and the ease that I sin. I hate that I am so easily able to slam the door in your face every day. I hate how the enemy sneaks inside my head to convince me that sinning against you is a better idea than repenting. I hate the enemy how he can destroy what little beauty and love there is in my life and I am powerless to fight back against him. I hate how weak I am. There is no power or strength in Todd.

You endured abuse, torture and climb up on the cross for me. I don’t understand why you would care about me that much. I don’t understand why you would do that for an uncaring sin-filled filthy person. You climbed up on the cross and endured the nails going through your hand. Each nerve screaming hit of the hammer. You endured all of my sin. I barely can endure my own sin on a daily basis. You chose to take it all, all the sin of the world. You chose to take the punishment and make sure justice is served. I can’t understand. You so loved the world that you gave us everything.

It is only through your gift, the ransom you paid that it is possible to be seen as valuable to You and Your Father, you chose me. I am worthless but you forgive what I never could, you love me, who I could never love.

Questions upon Questions…

I give up my life to you, I submit to you. Lead me to the fight and I will serve and fight. I am Your broken warrior.

All Glory to You!